A huge vote of thanks to the RDP family & those that have supported me .

[relaxalot]

God has a plan and you have a purpose. It may or MAY NOT be your time..keep a hopeful spirit while you prepare your family and yourself. Crazy things happen all the time. You may not be done yet even though you may feel like it. You are a hero to your family and all of the RDP world! As long as you are blessed with the gift of life stay hopeful! Take each day, maybe every hour, maybe each minute at a time.. Bless you and your family!

 

[River Lynchmob]

May you and your family find peace in your decision. Like was said above you never know what may happen from one day to the next. Good luck to you and I will keep you and yours in my prayers.

 

[v3nmous01]

V3, are there any life lessons you feel passionately about after going through your ordeals that you would share here?

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

 

[Stainless]

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

Thank you for sharing that, my father died from Diabetes. Maybe this will help someone avoid this terrible disease, perhaps me.

 

[spectra3279]

Sorry to hear this.

 

[C-2]

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

Excellent. Thanks :thumbsup

 

[RiverDave]

I have been reading this thread, and I am at a total loss for words.. I have been following the Saga on and off since 2012 (For anyone that wants to read up, on the high's and lows you can click this link http://www.riverdavesplace.com/forums/search.php?searchid=3878205 )


From the tone of your original post, I'm guessing that your decision to move to Hospice also includes the idea that you are no longer going to be taking any medications etc? Did they give you any kind of timeline to expect?

I can't imagine going through this, especially with a teenage son, and a (6 or 7 year old?) Autistic son?

RD

 

[Long Way Home]

I have looked at your post for the last few days and wishing I had the right words, just know I care. I have never met you but we are boating brother/friends and I hope we meet you on the other side, I'm sure there is a lake and cold beer there we can share, Beer is living proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. Godspeed

 

[jonnyd]

I too have been thinking about this post for a few days now and trying to think how I could respond to your situation. I can't begin to fathom what you must be going through to have to make a decision like this and what it's going to mean for your family. It sounds like you are at your wits end and while you wish you could do something to change it, you have already tried everything you know to do.

The only thing I can tell you is that this is one of those times when I would call on Jesus. Give it to him and then take one day at a time. God said that we are only to focus on each day. Every day we have here on earth is a gift. I hope and pray that you have already done this. I will be praying for you and your family!

 

[Joker]

I'm not sure how to respond to this as I've never been confronted with making such a choice. On one hand you want to be selfish and spend as much time with your family as possible, while on the other hand you yourself are suffering and know the eventual outcome and have decided to put your family needs in front of yours. This cannot be easy on anyone and I'm sorry it has come to this. Your story here will change at least one life here if not many.

 

[AZBrummett21]

God speed Jason, your in my prayers..

 

[V3NMOUS]

I have been reading this thread, and I am at a total loss for words.. I have been following the Saga on and off since 2012 (For anyone that wants to read up, on the high's and lows you can click this link http://www.riverdavesplace.com/forums/search.php?searchid=3878205 )


From the tone of your original post, I'm guessing that your decision to move to Hospice also includes the idea that you are no longer going to be taking any medications etc? Did they give you any kind of timeline to expect?

I can't imagine going through this, especially with a teenage son, and a (6 or 7 year old?) Autistic son?

RD

My oldest is enrolled at Le Cordon Bleu culinary academy and loves it, I feel good about the groundwork his mother & instilled in him. My 14 year old has a ways to go, I'm concerned about his direction. I'm leaving at a critical age. My 7 year old is making insane progress largely due to his mother, because I have spent as much time in the hospital as out the last 3+ years. He will miss me, but Mom is his primary caretaker.
It would be selfish of me to expect her to care for him and me, besides the fact that I am truly exhausted from the fight.

 

[l84theriv]

God speed fellow RDP'r. Prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[wsuwrhr]

My oldest is enrolled at Le Cordon Bleu culinary academy and loves it, I feel good about the groundwork his mother & instilled in him. My 14 year old has a ways to go, I'm concerned about his direction. I'm leaving at a critical age. My 7 year old is making insane progress largely due to his mother, because I have spent as much time in the hospital as out the last 3+ years. He will miss me, but Mom is his primary caretaker.
It would be selfish of me to expect her to care for him and me, besides the fact that I am truly exhausted from the fight.

Heartbreaking. I have contemplated those very thoughts.

I have no words.

This board has humbled me these past few days.

GodSpeed to you sir.

 

[Boozer]

My oldest is enrolled at Le Cordon Bleu culinary academy and loves it, I feel good about the groundwork his mother & instilled in him. My 14 year old has a ways to go, I'm concerned about his direction. I'm leaving at a critical age. My 7 year old is making insane progress largely due to his mother, because I have spent as much time in the hospital as out the last 3+ years. He will miss me, but Mom is his primary caretaker.
It would be selfish of me to expect her to care for him and me, besides the fact that I am truly exhausted from the fight.

Jason, I'm sorry. I'm struggling to find the words and I'll do the best I can..

There are so many people that if put in your shoes would have given up the fight so long ago. You've given it your all, you've more than paid your dues and despite what you're saying you're going out swinging. I will carry the weight of your words and your actions with me until the day we meet on the other side.

 

[djunkie]

Don't even know what to say. That's a tough thing to go through. I truly wish you the best and hope maybe something can be done.

 

[Joker]

Heartbreaking. I have contemplated those very thoughts.

I have no words.

This board has humbled me these past few days.

GodSpeed to you sir.

You're not kidding Brian. Any of us that think we have it bad have just come to the realization it could be much worse. So sad.

 

[460]

I'm truly at a loss for words. While we have never met, I know with out a doubt you are a great man. To be honest, I have tears in my eyes as I type this. May you find peace and happiness. I wish you and your family the best and I will see you on the other side.

 

[Roaddogg 4040]

I to am at a loss to find the words to say at a time like this. My prayers go out to you and your family and I hope that you can find peace.

Steve

 

[pronstar]

Loss for words in an understatement.
It sounds like you're doing what you can to get your priorities in order with your loved ones, that's massively important when it comes to the legacy that you leave behind.

For the board, I think it helps all of us to hear your story, what you've gone thru, the decisions you made and those you would change.

This happened to you at such a young age, which for me shows that it can happen to any of us.

Life is long but can be cut short at any moment.
Live, laugh and love with those closest to you...because it all could change in an instant.

God speed, brother.
Continue to touch all of our lives while you're able...we will all be the better for it.

 

[dschifan]

Prayers to you and your family. Speechless to say the least and a reality check.

 

[Devious_Chris]

God Bless you and your family sir. May your time come with peace and dignity.......

 

[n2otoofast4u]

There's probably nothing that can describe the courage it takes to make this decision! Your family and friends will understand, and we will pray for their future! Godspeed fellow man! May peace be with you and your family!

 

[v3nmous01]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

 

[wsuwrhr]

These past few days have been humbling sir. GodSpeed.

I could have bested your two wheel record by 15. But that is all I got.

I have few words for you. I wish there was something I could wordsmith up.

Respect.

Brian

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

 

[wsuwrhr]

Also I wondered....why the change of name?

 

[Riverbound]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

I would be honored to fulfill that wish for you.

I haven't posted in here because honestly I had nothing that I felt I could say or offer. But if your wish is to go triple digits I can make that happen, I wish I could've done that for you before.

 

[Flyinbowtie]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

So sorry to see this, but humbled by your character, selflessness, and the dignity you are demonstrating at this time. I well remember the trials and battle you have waged. Make sure your wife knows where to go if we as a group can help.
You are a good man, and you know where your path leads.
May the Lord Bless you and your family, may he make his light shine upon you. As he has given you peace may he also give you clarity and strength for the journey ahead.

All the best,

Jeff

 

[was thatguy]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

Sir,
Humbly, may your journey be one of peace and comfort.
Words can not describe the respect that I hold for you.
Selfless and honorable do not even come close.

Travel with God and look over your family.
Sincerely Tom and Deb

 

[milkmoney]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

I really don't know how to put the words in a post that are going through my head. I have more respect for you , than a lot of people I have met.

I wish your time left is very peaceful and you and your family get the serenity and peace you need.

[emoji202]

 

[purrfecttremor]

I'm assuming and praying your in hospice at home. That is so great of riverbound to offer the ride and you better take him up on it. Just being around the people here is really one of the greatest things a boater could ever experience. You my friend have been in my thoughts since your original post and I truly wish we would have crossed paths and got to know each other. My thoughts and prayers will continue as long as need be. Stay positive my friend!

 

[JB in so cal]

God Bless you and keep you!

 

[River Lynchmob]

Started hospice today. Ought to be an interesting adventure. Thanks again for all that have offered prayers and positive vibes. I have given my wife my forum password, so she can update the thread as needed. I hate no conclusion to these. I hope you all have a safe off road in season and a spectacular boating season. Someone needs to borrow a little bit of my ashes from my wife when boating season starts, I always wanted to do triple digits in a boat. Been well over 180 on 4 wheels, 160+ on two, I just never got the chance to ride in a really fast boat.

I would be happy to do that for you...I'm sure you have had offers if they don't workout or you want to go on more than one let me know.

 

[RogerThat99]

Are you open to visitors, or do you prefer to not have visitors?

 

[C-2]

Still thinking about you as you start your journey. Peace, brother.

 

[Enen]

End of life is something we all face eventually. One can hope to be as lucid and at peace with a fact of life as you seem to be. Godspeed on your journey into the next life.

 

[E4L]

Wish you the best and atleast you will be comfortable in your own home. Godspeed

 

[mbrown2]

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

Thanks for sharing as it puts things in perspective. It is simple times in ones life when you are sharing that mean the most. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

 

[DURAMAXYFZ]

Take care. It was great meeting you.:thumbsup

 

[Riverbound]

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

This post definitely hits a spot with me.

 

[was thatguy]

My only regret is not taking care of my diabetes at it's inception. I was diagnosed fairly early, and when I did check my #'s, they weren't that far off, so I stopped v checking before I knew it the complications came fast & furious. I still worked 16 hour days, ate like shit, trying to chase the almighty $.
I should have slowed down, done with less and spent more time enjoying lifes simple pleasures. A cup of coffee when no one else is awake, and you can actually enjoy some silence. More time enjoying the company of my wife, without having to be at the river, or desert, or other activity. It's cool having fun, but has my time closes, I find myself remiemenising about the softer moments that I shared with those I love. Experiencing adventures is fun, but sharing an emotional bond with someone (a couple if your really lucky) is a feeling you carry with you forever.

I just read this to Deb as we sit in the infusion room at UC Davis.

These very issues have been weighing heavily on me lately.

Thank you so much for sharing these thoughts.

 

[Deja_Vu]

I absolutely wish you and your family the best in what life has to offer. I can't imagine how this feels.

 

[OGShocker]

Jason,

Our thoughts and prayers go out to you and your loved ones. I pray you find peace. I pray your family / friends replace their pain and sorrow with joyful memories of your time with them.

Some forms of courage, are undiscovered, undefined and immeasurable. Your courage is not.

Mark

 

[Cole Trickle]

No words....

I have been through and dealt with so much in life I figured out at a young age that my family and my health would always be a priority over financial success. I have been a type 1 diabetic since age 13 and have seen far to may people neglect there health only to pay for it sooner rather than later. It really is a scary Disease that you have to work and fight daily.....no days off.

I was also the product of Parents that have been Divorced a combined 5 times and it has effected my commitment level to both my Wife and Child more than I could convey.

I hope you are at peace and pain free.

 

[Froggystyle]

Bill posted this on Facebook and I wanted to come and let you know how proud I am to know you, and respect the path you are taking immensely. This is a big step into the unknown, and I've met few people in my life willing to face it head on after careful thought.

Enjoy what's left. I was listening to a song by Pearl Jam literally the a minute before I read about this... I was thinking of how important some lyrics were, and wondering why I had overlooked them somehow...

"The North is to South what the clock is to time
There's east and there's west and there's everywhere lying
I know I was born and I know that I'll die
The in between is mine"

Let us know if you need anything. You've got a lot of triple digit offers in front of you, but if you can make it to Needles, I'll give you the spookiest of them.

Wes

 

[steamin rice]

Still thinking about you as you start your journey. Peace, brother.

+1

I realize it's a long shot, but hopefully you are somehow able to take one of those 100 mph rides.

 

[GRADS]

I've been debating on how to post in this thread but felt compelled to say something so I'm going to shoot from the hip. First and foremost I want to say I have the utmost respect for you. As a cancer survivor I have had the conversation with my wife...what if this is it? Some of the most painful moments of my life. I feel like a little bitch after reading your story. The courage you have shown is incredible. I just wanted you to know that you have moved me and I will never forget you or your story.

 

[C-2]

Checking in Jason, we're still here for you bud.

 

[dryhoze1]

I truly am lost for words..
After reading your post last night, I set my alarm a half an hour earlier to have that first cup of coffee in a quiet house.
I enjoy doing that, but reading your post brought it to another level. I thought of you & what you have been thru.
Please know you have my upmost respect.
Whenever I hit triple digits in a boat, I'm going to look into the blue sky & think of you.
Godspeed

Brian

 

[Willie B]

... Hi Jason,..... We don't know each other on a physical plane but since you have shared your spirit with so many through your story... I hope what I say comes across as words of encouragement to you and your family...I have a dear friend who had recently entered into the area of where are you now...As you have, he had come to terms with his destiny and he was totally clear and totally at peace with going into the hospice aspect of the journey... At first he was in physical pain...Many of his friends tried to encourage him to request morphine which he finally did and it brought him to the warm and fuzzy feeling place... I don't know if you have hospice care givers with you but if you do these people are pros they will take care of you,...They know what they are doing... You have your loving family and you have the RDP people sitting right next to you,...we are here we are going through this journey with you... Some talk of a big mansion on the other side well if there is such a place when you do finally reach it could you save us all a room??? ... Jason my dear friend's transition has been peacefull and pain free,...and I'm sure yours will be too...