2 years today, this hour.

[was thatguy]

Doesn’t seem like it.

 

[79 HUSTLER]

Sorry man... Time sure flies.

 

[RodnJen]

Can't believe it's been that long.

 

[was thatguy]

Can't believe it's been that long.

I know right?
The years just fly by.

 

[Gelcoater]

I know right?
The years just fly by.

Sure do.
Sorry, man.

 

[jetboatperformance]

Came very close to passing a year and two months back myself , yes time flys Tommy sorry for your loss , live everyday like its your last !

 

[FreeBird236]

Sorry Tommy, hard to believe, I would have guessed half that.

 

[rivergames]

Sorry Buddy

 

[was thatguy]

Came very close to passing a year and two months back myself , yes time flys Tommy sorry for your loss , live everyday like its your last !

I remember that Tom.
Then we lost Tex, and the clock is just spinning faster and faster.

Personally I’ve never had a fear of dying. I’m weird like that!
Grief is a symptom of life. Survivors bear that burden. On one hand I miss her every single day. On the other hand it comforts me knowing I have a lobbyist up there negotiating my membership...!
I left her phone activated and her family and me send her texts. I don’t read them, they are for her. (It’s dinging a lot today)

 

[rivermobster]

I remember that Tom.
Then we lost Tex, and the clock is just spinning faster and faster.

Personally I’ve never had a fear of dying. I’m weird like that!
Grief is a symptom of life. Survivors bear that burden. On one hand I miss her every single day. On the other hand it comforts me knowing I have a lobbyist up there negotiating my membership...!
I left her phone activated and her family and me send her texts. I don’t read them, they are for her. (It’s dinging a lot today)

I wanna say something to this, but I got nuthin.

You're still a Prince in my book.

 

[was thatguy]

I wanna say something to this, but I got nuthin.

You're still a Prince in my book.

Thanks, but I don’t know anyone that wouldn’t have done the same thing.
Many others here have.
It’s what we do.

 

[BHC Vic]

I’ve learned a lot from you. Not sure that you care, but you and a few others have had a really big impact on me. It sounds stupid but a lot of who I am today was shaped on this board. It was a strange time in my life when I joined this place. Pretty sure things would be different had I not.

 

[RVR SWPR]

Incredible Journey

 

[was thatguy]

I’ve learned a lot from you. Not sure that you care, but you and a few others have had a really big impact on me. It sounds stupid but a lot of who I am today was shaped on this board. It was a strange time in my life when I joined this place. Pretty sure things would be different had I not.

That absolutely means a lot to me Vic.
I remember when Vicious joined up!
Seems like another lifetime huh?

 

[f12517]

That absolutely means a lot to me Vic.
I remember when Vicious joined up!
Seems like another lifetime huh?

View attachment 901706

The world sure could use a whole lot of more of this.....

 

[boatdoc55]

That absolutely means a lot to me Vic.
I remember when Vicious joined up!
Seems like another lifetime huh?

View attachment 901706

Thinking of you Tommy!!!!

 

[wallnutz]

Damn, two years already. I will give her another toast tonight as I did the day she passed. We get to that age when we start losing people important to us more often. I or we really need to sit back and define what is important to us and live for the day more. Sorry for your loss Tommy.

 

[Singleton]

Thoughts with you!
She will always be with you!

 

[Flyinbowtie]

Can't belive it Tommy. It was 3 years ago last June that we lost Dawson on the same day we gained a grandson. I sit here today, nursing a couple of bruised or cracked ribs and think of what you went through. I will pour two fingers of single barrel tonight to her memory.

 

[rrrr]

Tommy, I hope the grief has subsided and only the good memories of your years with Deb remain.

 

[monkeyswrench]

Very tough to read Tommy.

Grief is surely a symptom of living, as pain is a facet of life. If we didn't ever hurt, we wouldn't ever realize things were good. Sometimes some of us take things for granted. Sometimes life catches up. From what I've read, you two had some really good times, even when the future was looking bleak.

Enjoy this life. We only get one chance.
One's own perspective is everything.

 

[COCA COLA COWBOY]

Sorry for your loss

 

[napanutt]

Damn it certainly doesn't seem like two years. I remember where I was when I got your text that day.

 

[was thatguy]

Can't belive it Tommy. It was 3 years ago last June that we lost Dawson on the same day we gained a grandson. I sit here today, nursing a couple of bruised or cracked ribs and think of what you went through. I will pour two fingers of single barrel tonight to her memory.

I remember seeing the pics of Dawson with his RC car, made him light up.

 

[HNL2LHC]

Sometimes life just doesn‘t seam fair. Sorry man!!!!!

 

[squeezer]

Doesn’t seem like it.

To Deb...

 

[was thatguy]

To Deb...

View attachment 901768

That’s awesome squeezer!
Thank you.

 

[rivrrts429]

Hard to believe it’s been two years already. I’ll raise one up for her tonight bud.

 

[RichL]

Very sorry for your loss.

 

[Mandelon]

I can't believe the time has gone that quickly. I hope things have gotten easier for you.

 

[Bullet28]

Sorry Tommy, time does fly by very quickly. As others have said it seems like half the time. My thoughts and prayers are with you today as they were 2 years ago.

Ray

 

[Ducksquasher]

My thoughts are with you....God bless you!

 

[Rondog4405]

Man..that 2 years flew by... thoughts go out to u brotha!

 

[NorCalRiverRat]

sorry for your loss. not to be nosey, but do you still have all that in the picture like a shrine ? or scather the ashes someplace ? a plot in a graveyard ? I'm doing research because I need to fill in that blank page in my will about last wishes...every time I sit down to write nothing happens...

 

[Mcob25rg]

You don’t know me, but I know you through the love story you posted. I cried for you many nights, and wonder how you’re getting along. A love like the two of you had is a once in a lifetime thing. My prayers and well wishes go out to both you and Deb. I live a lot more for today, after your sharing -thank you for the help. You did it right - no regrets - we are all proud of you. Hope tomorrow’s joy and sunshine help with the healing process.

 

[Sandlord]

so sorry my friend

 

[cole_skier]

Sorry Tommy. Time flys but the memories last. Peace be with you.


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

 

[was thatguy]

sorry for your loss. not to be nosey, but do you still have all that in the picture like a shrine ? or scather the ashes someplace ? a plot in a graveyard ? I'm doing research because I need to fill in that blank page in my will about last wishes...every time I sit down to write nothing happens...

I took that picture today.
It’s really just her urn and her stuffed animals. But the location in the house lends itself to a shrine like appearance for sure.

My plan was to scatter her ashes from the Miller on Shasta lake at high speed. She loved doing that.
But I found I couldn’t part with her.
Still can’t.
She honestly told me she didn’t care where I scattered her ashes or if I ever scattered them. She left all that up to me.
All the family has key chain urns with a bit of her ashes.
I try to think about scattering her but my brain won’t allow me to think it through.
I was selfish with her when I did combat with her cancer, and I’m selfish with her now with what I’m left with.
I think that soon I will discuss it with all of her family and decide. Her family is my family.
They taught me what a real family looks like and at times I think I’m being selfish with them when it comes to her and her heirlooms.

So if you want a certain thing to happen with your ashes then specify it clearly. Otherwise someone like me will just hang on to you forever.

Her only fear was going in the ground. She did NOT want to go in the ground.

 

[Mcob25rg]

You are a bright guy - your heart will tell you what/when/where. Just let it happen.

 

[playdeep]

I said this a while back to you but it bears repeating...because it's still resonates with me.

If I can get thru life with half the class&dignity that you've displayed...

Offer still stands,drinks&dinner on me if you're ever in New Mexico.

 

[was thatguy]

@BHC Vic

lol saw this meme in my folder and it reminded me of a young vicious13!

 

[Ziggy]

The only comforting thing about this is knowing she is free of all pains.
You're a strong dude

 

[musicFunsun]

I really wanted to post something but just couldn’t find the words. Mcob35rg said it best.
Stay strong, you have a great group of friends.

 

[C-2]

Always a class act. Look at what your tribute has done - the kind words, compassion and sincerity shown in this thread is beyond (recent) compare. Awesome. Thanks for sharing your journey, and thanks for the life-lesson on humility.

 

[beaverretriever]

A tough day for sure buddy. Heck, I never know what else to say, and I usually never shut up.

 

[Willie B]

...As I read this my eyes see to be welling up...As others have said your heart will tell you what to do...
... in speaking with my sister a couple of days ago and I informed her when the time comes she will be receiving my ashes she didn’t seem too thrilled???...Apparently you cannot tell the people who do this kind of work to just take your ashes and put them in a dumpster...they actually physically have to be shipped to a facility or a residence???... might just be a California thing...
...I’m not that much of a drinker but if I had some Makers or anything comparable I would be doing a two finger toast as well...

 

[Flyinbowtie]

I remember seeing the pics of Dawson with his RC car, made him light up.

One of those pics is the desktop on my phone. I can't change it. That little boy is with me until I depart this earth.
With regards to the ashes...
Listen.
You will know when it is time to do something different than what you are doing now. You will know. It will be a thought that will come that gives you the direction you want to take, and that will tell you the what and the when part. Until that thought comes to you what you are doing now is the right thing to do. If the boat ride in the Miller at Shasta is the answer the time and place will present itself. You may decide next year you want to hook up and tow north in spring/summer, and visit some of your old stomping grounds, just take a lap up here. You have a ton of friends whom would love to put you up for a night or three.
Or...something else may come into your heart. Until it does, there isn't an issue....right?
Let it be until you are moved otherwise.
I am one of those guys that mulls a situation over, and it may take awhile but I usually wake up around 3am and the answer is front and center in my mind. I know it when it comes. That is how it hits me. You have your own gut check process that you go through, and it won't fail you on this.

 

[RCDave]

You got a heart of gold Tommy, especially after all you've endured. My best to you and family.